There is no admission fee to join AA, no dues that need to be paid. We are members of AA if we say we are. No one can deny us.
However, the first step tells us that if we want to enter into a new life without alcohol we need to admit, admit we are powerless and helpless. That admission is a costly price for anyone to pay.
Once we have taken that first step, it is behind us, right? We are now free to continue, to work on taking the next step without having to look back. But it doesn’t work like that.
That initial admission must be repeated daily, hourly. It is the tool that combats our ego-driven obsession. Without constantly admitting to ourselves our complete powerlessness we cannot find the energy or grace to develop any subsequent part of this program.